Two Things I Learned This Week

I learned two important things this week. First, when I ask for something and get it, it’s mine forever. When I ask and don’t get it, it’s never mine in the very beginning. I’m still waiting for the right time to apply that thought…

Second, people stay together not because they forget, but because they forgive. This one I have to learn. I never forget and I never forget. This is just the worst thing about me. I spend my nights thinking about what people did to me and weighing the gravity. And it’s funny because most people who caused me a lot of ache are the ones closest to me- family and friends.

I am vengeful. I guess only one person know that fact. I never stop until I get my revenge… But then “vengeance is not ours, it’s God’s.” Like a guerilla soldier, I attack during the quietest nights and when you wouldn’t expect me.

Of course, I feel bad about myself… I feel awful that I have to carry this burden. Seriously, I won’t stop until I figure out a way how to make her feel what I felt when she ordered me to take back my decision- when that one thing that I was very proud to do was taken from me.

In the end there are still exemptions. People stay together not because they forgive, but because it’s easier to know your enemy first before attacking.

You should watch Indecent Proposal and learn from it.